So Far Away

Too much depression,,

too many contradiction..

i feel so empty,

searching for a reason to live,

i've lost so many precious things

i've lost my mid-school best buds..

i;ve lost the person who made me feel perfect..

i've lost my hope..

too many to list all those things that i once had,

what the hell am i doing with my life..

but the saddest part is,

i once lost my two bestfriends

friends that i wish i could grow old with

thanks for the great memories guys

i'll never forget you khai and amir..

but it's time for me to go..

Pieces

I never chose to lived this way,

i never chose to be this way..

it's tough when you learned your lesson in life

from the hard way

it's hard to forget what you've been through

what you've done

what you've lose..

we can't win all the time,

that's just life,

when you're up, one day you'll fall

i once red a random quote from a website

it said 

"we can do anything, but not everything"

it sucks that we have to make a choice,

and that choice must be the correct one

weather we know it or not..

i made a bad choice once,

and i hope to god that i'll never made that kinda

choice again,

because that'll be the last thing i want to feel again

getting hurt,

If you want to follow your heart, 

make sure you take your brain with you,

because heart always fuck things up

Toy Soldier

i once dreamed that i was a soldier,

i don't think its a great dream,

you know being a soldier, the hero of the country

no not that kinda type of soldier dream.

i dreamed that, i was in a war zone in a city,

i was laying down on the ground and

my hand was bleeding,

as my vision was blurry

i watch lots of cannons shooting up in the sky

trying to blow up the planes that flying around above,

as i tried to get up, all of my bestfriends got shot

and died in front of me

i was shock because i don't know what the hell 

happened before i was down,

 it was very devastating to watch

your closes friends died.

as i kneel myself down,

one of the enemies point an AK-47 gun 

in front of my face

i feel nothing but want to die on that time

i feel like, i'm helpless, letting my friends died in a war zone

after i took a bullet in the head,

my mind goes blank, and after a few minutes

i woke up, and i said

"thank god it's a dream"

all of my muscles are weak,

i can't even walk straight after i woke up,

after a few minutes then, i was back to normal.

i tell you, that was one of the scariest dream, 

that usually dream,

"sigh"

this is minzzy, signing out