Hyper-Insomnia

Okey first thing i wanna say is

i have trouble in getting to sleep,

and mostly in the middle of the night,

i start to over thinking,

i think about,

life, family, love, and sometimes friends

the thing that bothers me mostly is,

love,

i don't know, maybe,

its just because i'd never felt the real love

you know, the true one?

not some teenage puppy love. 

NO, i'm talking about the real one..

Maybe i'm just tired of break ups,

bullshit puppy love, friends with benefits,

maybe i'm not into those things

maybe i'm just the type of guy,

who wants to be with one girl..

i don't know if that's unusual for guys to be,

as you know.. guys should

have fun, meet girls there and that somewhere

i know, usually guys are like that,

and now, i'm kinda thinking,

why the fuck am i not a guy -,-

i mean, every time i wanna be loyal

with someone, they always

broke my heart =___=

i kept on going and going

still i end up broken

is it my fault?

or is it just another lesson

that i need to learn?

nahh i don't know..

Well, i hope i'll meet her one day

the one that i can be loyal with

the one i can be comfortable with

the one who'll understand me,

I pray, that i'll meet her someday :)

Minzzy, signing out~